hello!

2007-11-12T23:58:00.000-08:00

n0thing much happen t0dae..
just missing hym t0o much..
haishh..
enn enn..
i've editted s0me pichas t0day..

that's all fh0r t0day..
anyway..
to my sweetie pie..
im s0rry..
fh0r..haiz.. he n0es it..
i love y0u, dearest..

2007-11-08T18:55:00.000-08:00

As I look closely in your eyes,
I notice that you are staring through me.
Your not just looking at me,
Your eyes tell me how much you love me.

As I watch you smile,
I notice that you are smiling with love.
Your not just smiling,
Your smile tells me how much you love me.

boy, i juz love you the way you are;
unique.

2007-11-06T22:29:00.000-08:00

life's getting frm bad to worst. haishh..

ferstly.. my family. dun wanna t0k abt it.

sec0ndly.. my syG.. he's nt g0nna go online animore. neither is he gonna use his hp animore. den hw am i suppose to contact hym? by kolling hys house. i dun really feel comfortable kolling hys house. haishh.. he said dat he did all these coz he can't seem to concentrate when this stuffs are wif hym. den wad bt me? did he even think think bt me? i dunno. seriously.

he told me bt hys ex gf. he said he lost the ring dat she bought fhor hym. he said dat the ring means alot.. reminds hym of her whenever he looks at it. n when i asked ''ouh.. she must be e bez gurlfren u ever had..'' n hys ans was ''yeah.. she was =/..''
hw do u guys think i felt..? he said all dat to ME. hys current gurlfren nw. on e other hand.. i n0e i shudn't be feeling dis way.. she's hys ex. wad do u expect, fada? n dey broke up coz of parents. nt bcoz they dun love each other or wad. until nw that gurl still call hym sweet names n stuff. n the ''hym'' is referring to MY BOIFREN. so its nt wrong fhor me to be feeling this way ryte? he said this are challenges given by GOD to see hw much we cn trust each other. dat dis is just the beginning. so dat means dat dere's g0nna be more?!! fine. i accept.
bt e fact is.. he's still thinking of his ex. i dun blame him. seriously. maybe i wasn't as gd as hys ex. bt at least i n0e im trying to be one. he asked me to trust hym dat nth will happen to us. i trust hym. as long as he dun break dat trust.

t0king more bt dis just hurts. bt no matter wad..
i'll always love you sweetie. i dun wanna lose eu.

2007-10-31T23:36:00.000-07:00

today went out wif my shopping sphree gurl.. wada. after skool i went bk hm. bt nobody's h0me. my *toot*ing maid went out dunno go wer. leave the house juz liddat. hu does she think she is huh?!! den cnnt change clothes. den go msl mrt station. met wada dere. change fhor so long. make up here and dere. chat chat chat. talk talk talk. bla bla bla. den take mrt go CCK.
ferst st0p was 'this fashion'. went 'patrolling' at the mall. den suddenly.. dis silly-but-lovely ghurl of mine brought zul(my ex) dere. dey haf been sms-ing. i knew dere was sumthing fishy going on. it was a 'suprise' frm her.. NOT!! so frustrated wif her. never tok to her for a long period of tyme. den lazy to sulk. okok wif her larhh..
dat idiotic zul make us walked lyke FARK! and we went dere ending up becoming part-tyme models. pose here. pose dere. smile here. smile dere. say cheese here. say cheese dere. aww.. here. aww dere. climb here. climb dere. ENUF!!!! =P
at last went home take taxi wif wada. bt im e one paying the taxi fare. nt fair! nvm la. wada lepak at my house till 6+ and then mama came home.
today get 2 poems from my dearest darling..
the ferst one goes lyke dis...

ouh ya. n happy 1 day anniversary babe! i love you <3

i'll show our super gorgeous pose once wada put it in her comp!! =)
nyte nyte. =)

2007-10-30T23:56:00.000-07:00

blog changed agn. haiz. dis is lyke my.. 10th blog..? afetr dis dun wanna change agn. too lazy. i dun wanna make it the 11th one.

i wanna tell u bt dis guy. he's my childhood fren. my mom and his mom are the best friends ever! and i gotta noe dat he's my classmate's former skoolmate and classmate! whard a small world after all!n he's Mohamed Haziq Bin Ibrahim. <3

it all strated when he n hys family went to raya at my house. he looks sizzling hot! and he wore brown contact lens too! he look great! we talk bout studies n stuff.

we chat at msn and dunno wad happen.. we started a relationship today at 2328 hours. the way we give each other hints was so sweet! he told me hys probs n i told hym mine. i will try my best to help hym wif hys probs. hys probs are mine too. we always cheer each other up. i feel so comfortable sharing my probs wif hym. he's the man of my dreams.

on the other hand.. bt hafiz.. he dun even care bt me..(i guess..) he's always wif wad he call brothers. n i noe dat he loves sumone else. all the clues are pointing to the phrase "WILL NOT WORK OUT!" bt justin..has been bugging me to patch wif hym bk. break n patch 9 tymes wif hym already. i've had enuf wif hym. well.. i dun wanna bring the past bk. maybe.. its tyme fhor a change. i haf a new life nw. even though im dropping to NA nxt yr. haziq darling make me realised that it's nt the end of the world yet. instead, he said that its a motivation fhor me to work harder nxt yr. i really haf a lot to catch up. bt im sure i cn do it wif my dearest by my side.. supporting me always.. i love you dear.. u teach me a lot of things that i didn't c all this while.. n he even wrote me poems. n he wrote me 3 poems today!! oh god! dis guy is one in a miliion!
i thnk GOD for sending own a great guy lyke hym fhor me..